Where did I get this?
How many people feel like they're being tossed about, life changing around them with little feeling of control?
Lots, I would volunteer, including me.
There's a Cloud Cult song lyric that goes:
"I've sailed through hurricanes with a wooden plank and a smiley face."
That sums it up. My life changes drastically so quickly, and it seemes to get better, and better. One month a go, most of my efforts were concentrated in an area that I rarely think about now.
One year ago I was living with my partner on the east side of Flint. Three weeks ago I was pursuing someone who felt nothing for me. Now I'm seeing someone who I really, really like, and we have fun together.
Recently my Dad offered to buy my sister and I a house we can rent from him to get me off the couch and my sister and I out of our apartment. Imagine in four months sleeping on a couch will be a memory, as my band moves our practice space to wherever we're living.
My friend who I care about dearly is ten weeks pregnant, and has decided to keep her child. This friend also happens to be the person I've been dating for three weeks. She doesn't like the guy who's going to have to sign the birth certificate. You can only guess what thoughts going through my mind. Interestingly, none of them say "Run. Away. Now." Even more interesting are the thoughts that whisper, "This could be fun..."
I live day to day for the dream that I'll be a working musician, while I work in a vocation that is getting slimmer and slimmer.
So, there is no strong foundation, this is no ocean liner, this is a wooden plank, but I still have a smiley face.
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